First Entry

This is my first entry into a electronic blog. I hope that I can pour out my mind's ink onto the endless sheets of internet space. Perhaps, others will read it and delve into the psyche of a human. I will be adding many things to this blog, refining it, and such over time. I first felt though that a blog cannot begin unless there is an entry:

11/29/09 - Today I watched an older movie Kramer vs Kramer produced in 1979 about a couple's divorce and the aftermath. It was quite poignant, sad of course. Today, has been fairly sad for me. I'm not exactly sure why but I think I know: If you are reading this, I haven't told you that I will be graduating college in 3 weeks with a dual degree in Spanish and in Management Information Systems. I also will be graduating with highest honors. Today, I have been swept up by a storm of unhappiness because I do not know what will happen after I graduate. I couldn't tell you where I will be just 1 month after my graduation. I have tried to find a job, ten actually, all to be rejected so far. My mind drifts off to the summer, the past one. You'd think at age 23 I would have found love before. Ha, as amateur as that sounds I did not until the summer of '09. I didn't know what that word meant actually, though I stupidly pronounced it a few times before. That worked out well, let me tell you. *sarcasm* Anyway, I had during that period one of the best times, it was really surreal. I didn't worry about anything, I had no worries, I just had her. I hope I'm not being sappy or melodramatic but my mind drifts to the sands of old...The summer of '09. You may ask what happened? Easy to say, she continued her life and I continued mine- she went to Indonesia to teach. I'm glad she's there because she's learning, seeing new things. It's a good experience for her. I just reminisce..that's all. Suffice it to say, I reminisce of those times. Maybe one day I'll see her again. On a Sunday morning at 2:17 AM, my mind is active and it is all I can think about right now. Maybe I'm obsessed, stupid for not moving on. I thought I did actually given I have dated since her departure. Through my dating though I am just reminded of her, her great qualities. Anyway, that's enough. I don't want this blog to get the reputation of a soap opera.

Night. Perhaps over time, Kyle Rosen will be laid out like a rug on here, totally exposed. An exhibit of the mind. My mind.